First Ever Blog!

Wow so this is my first ever blog! 

I should properly start with something a bit more formal...

Hello everyone & welcome to my blog! 

Blogging is a completely new experience for me so its going to take a while for me to get the hang of things on this site, so please be patient with me :)

I have decided to start blogging because I am really interested in watching and creating my own video blogs (vlogs) but I don't feel confident enough to upload my videos to youtube, so I thought why not give blogging a go? Its very similar as I can share what I did that day with a quick blog post and some photos. There will be quite a few photos added to my daily entries as I am known to take photos of pretty much everything throughout my day...mostly of my puppy, but come on who doesn't want to see a few photos of a cute dog right?! 

I guess since I've done the whole "hello blogging world I'm here!" I will now continue to write my first entry! 

Today is the 8th September 2014 and today was quite a difficult day for me, I guess it would be a good idea to explain why a random day out of my life would be so mentally draining. 

January 2013 I got a three part surgery on my right knee, everyones first reaction to this...Ouch :/ 

And yes...mega ouch! It hasn't been an easy year and a half recovery since the surgery and my knee has decided it didn't want the surgery to work so for a while I was stuck at square one with my recovery, this would be incredibly frustrating for anyone coming straight out of high school who had something to do and interact with people every day and now here I am nearly 2 years later slowly going insane with no daily routine. Having a daily routine was one of the biggest and most important things for me to have on day to day basis back in high school as I was a netball coach, taking art - printmaking, which printmaking alone took up 80% of my day, and being a full time sister to my amazing twin, but I will probably get into being a twin and the story behind that in another blog in the future, anyway! As I was saying...

Going from being constantly busy, and then just like hitting a brick wall, I just stopped doing so many things all together... So after 2 years I let doing nothing become a habit. Back on point, today was such a challenging day for me because for the first time in my whole life had my first job interview/training. I won't mention where this job was but I will say that it was a telemarketers position, you are all probably thinking fantastic a job where you get to sit down & just talk to people on the phone for 4 hours a day, but sadly it wasn't all that fantastic, for me anyway.

The pressure was intense and I not being a person who has panic & anxiety attacks all that often found myself having one on the job. It wasn't because I was horrible at the job, don't get me wrong I love talking to people and felt somewhat comfortable talking to people of the phone but I felt overwhelmed being thrown straight into work first day & it being my first time in the work field ever & it being the first time really interacting with people who weren't in my family/friends circle since before my surgery, I just didn't feel like i belonged there. I want to be able to meet and greet customers face to face, actually have a chance to meet new people. So I turned down the position. Not because I was too chicken or too lazy, I just didn't think the job was for me & I strongly believe if you're not happy with a job or if there is something in your life that you are not happy with try to change it for the better, to make yourself happy! 

Don't worry though! I'm not just going to go back to old habits and do nothing, I want to look into doing a few Hospitality & Retail courses.

I am proud of myself that I went and experienced a job environment and broke out of my bubble of self doubt and self pity, so thats one of the highlights out of today.

Another highlight of my day is I got to hang with best friends that I have known since I was 5, even though we hang out all the time it was a definite plus to my day.

I am grateful one of my besties, Amy, picked me up and distracted me from talking myself out going to the job training 20 minutes before having to be there and having someone close to me drop me off right outside the building, even though it being a pretty standard thing to happen in every day life, it actually meant quite a lot to me. It made me realise that I have so much support from my friends and family that going into situations like that I don't have to worry because if anything didn't turn out amazing or in other words, turned to shit, I can always count on the people close in my life to be right outside waiting for me...Which brings me to the other two besties, Maddie (my twin sister) and Holly.

These two picked me up soon after my training which I also appreciate very much. They don't know this but as I was waiting outside the office and then slowly started walking to a near by car park for them to come get me I was trying my hardest not the break down, which I have explained in the previous paragraph why, and when I got in the car I couldn't help but laugh and smile because they never fail to make my day whether they realised they did or not. 

Another big achievement today was a 2.8km night walk I went on with Amy, Maddie and Holly. It doesn't sound like much of a walk but for me who is still having issues with my knee and can't walk for more than 20 minutes without having to be dragged home after collapsing it is an amazing feeling knowing that I am starting to get back into normal daily things such as walking long distances, if you can ever call that long distance? But it's a start, baby steps guys...baby steps!  We walked along the harbour and It was so beautiful with the moon light hitting the water and It was a perfect way to end what was a stressful day :)

Here are a couple of horrible quality photos of the walk! 

I'll be sure to try to bring my actual camera around every day so I can upload better pictures!!

Thank you for reading this incredibly long first blog!