26th September 2014

Happy Friday!! 

Today was my last full day with Mum and Dad before they leave tomorrow afternoon which is quite sad but I'm starting to get better at saying goodbye to them which is good! 

Today we spent part of the afternoon taking Lady to a forest to find rabbits, not to kill them we just wanted to see cute rabbits!

At first I just sat on a swing set at a near by park since the hills etc would be too much for me but then dad came out with a walking stick thing for me so I could include myself in the little adventure! 

During this walk I have never seen so many giant ass rabbits before in my life. They were probably the size of Lady! (my dog) 

She was so excited and got a bit carried away when she decided she wanted to go on her own little adventure into rabbit holes...

Here a couple photos :) 

We later visited Nana and Grandad since Mama and Paaaa haven't seen them in a while and I decided I wanted to get a tattoo of something that could be for Nana and Grandad so I looked around and the one thing that has been around just as long as we have & I remember always looking at as a child was my Nanas collection of glass crystal that has always lived in this old vintage glass case. Growing up I was always terrified about turning the key that stayed in the cases lock to look and play with the pieces in her collection thinking I would get into big trouble if I had, so I've decided to get a tattoo of the key to this case, one because whenever I think of something to do with them I always seem to think about the case but also I think its such a beautiful collection and key so why not?! 

Today was a lot more eventful than what my week had been and I had an amazing time with my parents & look forward to seeing them again soon! 

I am proud I managed the walk through the forest today because I honestly think I couldn't! 

I am also proud of Maddie for finally climbing the tree that took her a while too...was quite entertaining!!! We're not exactly spider monkeys anymore aye Madz? :/ 

Miss you and Love you heaps Mum and Dad MWAH

xx

Byeeeeeeeee

25th September 2014

Happy Thursday!! 

Today again I slept until about 2pm...I seriously need to start getting up earlier! Who wants to be my personal alarm clock?!

I went to the doctors about my knee which always leads me to be majorly nervous and I have no idea why! I've known my doctor since I was 5 :/

I'm going to need a knee brace to wear when ever I walk (sexy, I know) to stabilise my knee so it doesn't pop out when I'm walking since this has happened too many times to count. 

Just waiting for an appointment with a specialist in Invercargill now which I'm pretty sure I mentioned in another blog. 

Moving on...

Mum and Dad are visiting for a few days! WOO! I've missed them so much! 

Lady nearly fainted when she saw them walk through the door at 2am, she's a little grandad & nanas girl. 

My day consisted of sleeping, doctors as stated above & grocery shopping. Being a grown up sucks. 

But on the plus side I get to spend the next 2 days with my Ma and Paaaaaa :) 

Some exciting news!! I'm hopefully going to see Ed Sheeran live while he is in New Zealand! EEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Seeing my husband in person, holy freaking shit. My heart actually hurts.

My bestie from high school (Amy G photo below :)) and I

have been in love with Ed forever! We would be stupid not to go see our baby when he'll only be 5 hours away from where we live!! 

We found out last night and I kind of nearly cried...who am I kidding of course I had a little cry IT'S ED FUCKING SHEERAN!!!

So i'm hoping everything goes to plan and 8th April is going to be the best day ever! 

*angels sing Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*

LOOK AT THAT FACE!!! 

THOSE TATTOOS

Sorry...

Again not much to post today :)
Sorry for lack of posts...I should probably stop apologising for that considering this hasn't/isn't going to be the first time I miss a few days!

Byyeeeeeeeee

21st September 2014

Happy Sunday!!

It was a very boring sunday...I think I left my bed 3-4 times through out the day :/ Not good!

Today is exactly 3 months since I shaved my hair for Child Cancer!!

3 months and it's already growing back incredibly fast! 

Later on in this post I will upload a few pictures of my hair before and after. 

There will be future blog posts once a month updating on my hair growth progress! 

I thought in todays blog post I would talk about why I decided to do the 'runrazor' - Child Cancers little pun there :P

In November 2008 my twin sister Maddie was diagnosed with Lymphoma Non Hodgkins Stage 2 B Cell Cancer. 

November 4th 2008 started by me getting ready for school while Maddie got ready to go to the hospital to get stitches taken out after getting a lump on the side of her neck removed which doctors and specialists thought was just a cyst.

Without letting Maddie or my parents know they decided to biopsy it anyway...

So I made my way to school as Maddie drove off in the other direction. 

Around lunch time there was talk around school that my home room/maths teacher was looking for me and of course the first thing I thought was "shit he's going to have me on about my homework" since I didn't really give a crap about maths at all, who does anyways? 

He eventually found me and then said I was to go to the main office to see the principal so my thoughts then jumped too "holy shit i'm going to get expelled, why didn't I just do my bloody homework!?" because at the time that was my biggest worry in life. I then go to the office and saw my parents and Maddie in the office & everyone had puffy red eyes and Maddie was balling her eyes out. I will just add in they were at the school getting things sorted for Maddie since she would no longer be in school until further notice... I was told to sit down and mum then told me her & Maddie had to move a way for a while, and thats when she told me Maddie had cancer...So obviously that was the biggest fucking plot twist in our lives so far!! 

Maddie was to have treatment 5 hours away from where we lived for 4 months so I only got to see her on the weekends over the summer which after being so close all our lives only really having a night a part from each other for the occasional separate sleep over 4 months a part and only getting to see each other in the weekend where should would be very sick most of the time was shit for both of us. (mainly her obviously x) 

In 2011 she got the call that she was out of remission and cancer free!! YAY!!

Now back to the whole hair story...

At the time only being 14 years old I was too caught up in how I looked and all that crap that all teenagers go through their first year of high school, I never thought to shave my hair to support Maddie which I feel quite shit about since her losing her hair was such a big shitty moment in her life due to the circumstances but over the past 5 years I have also come to know a few people who have gone through treatment & survived and sadly some had passed away and it got to the stage where I thought fuck it! I don't care what people think of me & I still feel horrible for not doing it back when Maddie did have cancer, i'll raise money for Child Cancer and shave my hair off :) 

And once I have my mind set on something I won't do anything until it's done!

I managed to raise $500 in just under 2 days which is awesome and I thank everyone who donated so much! You are all truly amazing.

And the next stage was to obviously shave it all off!!

Although I sometimes miss my long hair I don't regret the decision at all!

Here are some photos of Maddie before and during treatment (I have asked her permission so don't panic!!) 

I am so happy that I get to keep my twin sister/best friend/other half by my side for many years to come & I am so proud of her for what she went through and I am so proud of the person she has become today!! But I apologise Maddie that I wasn't there for you as much as I should have been and I know that that wasn't in my control and that I couldn't be by your side all the time during treatment but I hope you know that if I could have been there 24/7 I would have been but yano all that soppy shit xo

Love you!!

Now here are the before and progress photos for my hair :) 

Thank you all for reading!!!

Byeeeeee

20th September 2014

Heres another tag!!!
Today wasn't all that interesting as usual.

Enjoy!!

18th & 19th September 2014

So I've been quite slack with posting every single day, I tried my hardest to get the 19th up on the 19th but editing and uploading my video took a lot longer than I thought...30 minutes of filming, 2 hours of editing, 20 minutes of exporting and 2 hours of uploading...So all up about 5 hours to get this video attached below up...Wow. So I apologise for the late post.

The 18th wasn't all too exciting, Maddie and I painted our nails at Hollys, which by the way Revlon nail polish, freaking amazing!! Usually other brands peel or crack off straight away or the same day but its been 2 1/2 days and it hasn't peeled or cracked and is still amazing so woo!! $3 revlon nail polish wasn't a rip off... We then went on a late-ish night adventure to Kmart where I got 3 crop tops for $3 each!? STEAL! and then obviously we went home and slept which is what I did the whole of the 18th so thats why there was no blog :/

And the 19th I decided to film the Best Friends tag with Holly and upload since today was again uneventful!

I hope you enjoy :D

Thank you for watching and being patient with my upload schedule.

Byeeeeee!

17th September 2014

Happy Wednesday!! 
Before I begin todays entry I want to say sorry for there not being a 16th September blog! I stayed in bed all day, it wasn't a very good day!!

Moving on...

Today was amazing! I actually found myself thinking about how excited I was to blog about todays events.

As you all know from a few of my posts but you know mostly from yesterdays post that I had a three part surgery done on my right knee at the beginning of 2013 and that the surgery didn't go 100% to plan since I'm still having issues with dislocations and blah blah blah anyway, its been about 3 years since I last went swimming properly like doggy paddle or breast stroke and swimming directly under the water, there was a time in the middle of 2013 where I went to a physio pool once or twice but all I did then was walk back and forth in a pool for 30min so that doesn't really count as swimming in my opinion.

 Today was very scary but exciting at the same time as today was the first time in a while where I went swimming! Maddie, Holly, Amy and I all decided to do Aqua Zumba, Zumba being an aerobic fitness program featuring movements inspired by Latin American dance but in water which adds a lot more resistance than it would doing a Zumba class that wasn't in the water plus its amazing for those who have bad joints like myself! 

Most of us were very nervous as we didn't know what to expect or how many people were

 going to attend the program, but like every other situation it turned out not to be as horrible and there was nothing to be nervous about! 

There was only 6 of us in the class and I knew the instructor who turned out to be the lovely mother of a friend who I went to high school

 with, I couldn't have asked for a more perfect instructor who made us feel comfortable being in the centre of a busy public pool :) 

The program went for about 45 minutes and I could not stop smiling the whole time! If I had the opportunity to do this class 3 years ago I would have stayed at home refusing to go while freaking my shit but being there with the girls and having such an amazing instructor made all my worries disappear and I didn't have a single thought like "oh i'm too fat for this, oh crap that person is looking at me, everyone is laughing at me why am I here!?" For the first time in a very long time I was generally happy and enjoying myself which I am proud of myself for doing! 

I am also proud at the fact that I was able to do 80% of the moves in this class! I went in thinking I wouldn't be able to any of the moves because of my knee but I did it!!

I am also extremely proud of my sister Maddie for giving Aqua Zumba a chance since I knew she was worrying about it being in a public setting but she seemed so happy the whole time and looked like she was enjoying herself and no body looked her way to judge her once, why would they anyway?! She handled herself very well and I am so proud of you Maddie, I know you read my blogs too xo

I want to thank the girls for coming with me and enjoying it! You guys being there made it 1000 more times fun and amazing than I thought it would be and I'm looking forward to doing it again soon! 

I apologise for the bad quality photos, it was dark...obviously :P

If you're wanting to start exercising or you are wanting to do Zumba but are too self conscious about doing a normal class or if you have bad joints and don't think you can do normal exercise PLEASE do this program I would not recommend it let alone write an entire blog about it if I didn't think it is worth your time. 

As cheesy as it sounds, It has truly changed my life for the better!  

Thank you again 

Byeeee!! 

16th September 2014

Happy Monday!!

Today I am back to writing a normal blog entry instead of a video, which to my surprise got quite a few views which is amazing! Thank you so much to those who watched it :D

 Today Maddie and I got to catch up with someone who hasn't featured on my blog yet,

Amy G!  

Below on the left is Amy G - and on the right is Maddie :)

Maddie and I picked her up after work and got Chinese which is what we usually get when going out to dinner with each other, but instead of dining in for dinner we decided to go back to her place to catch up properly without having to worry about people listening in since it has been FOREVER since we last saw her! 

It was a great end to a boring day, you guys will eventually get used to not getting a full day entry since I sleep until around 12pm every day :/

As i mentioned in other blogs though I really do want to change that! So you never know I may wake up quite early tomorrow and do something entertaining for the blog...

I love how us three girls can just sit and chat for hours & of course watch *cough* one direction videos...WHAT?! common their attractive talented guys...Who wouldn't like them? 

We then felt like an ice cream so you know what we did? That's right we went and got a mother beeping ice cream #noregrets 

Ewww did I just hastag in my blog? Bleh. 

ANYWAY moving on...

A few days ago I got a letter from my surgeon stating he wants to send me to a specialist in Invercargill so today I had a tiny panic about that but quickly snapped myself out of it, nothing can be as bad as the first surgery! Plus i need to remind myself that it's not my fault the surgery didn't work and I should let them do anything that they need to do to fix the problem otherwise life isn't going to be that great for me with stupid knees... So I will update about my knee situation in the future. 

Here are a few photos of my knee...oooooooh bones :P

I edited a couple more videos for the blog! 

I have decided to upload a video every Sunday since Sunday isn't a very interesting day for me, like ever! 

Again I want to thank those who read these blogs daily :)

Hope you all had an amazing day!

Byeeee 

15th September 2014 - Furry Friend Tag!!

Hey guys today I am uploading a tag video since today wasn't all that interesting it was just a sleeping, filming and editing day, so hope you don't mind!!!

Enjoy! 

14th September 2014

Happy Sunday!!

Back on schedule for writing my blog daily!! 

I apologise a lot for not posting regularly but the weekend was crazy busy so I didn't get a chance to sit down and write around the time i usually do but hopefully I can get back on track! 

I'm starting to feel like these blogs are going to become very repetitive so I'm thinking of doing a few Tags, reviews and blogs dedicated to a few of the people in my life, you know...all that cheesy stupid  stuff people might not enjoy reading but fuck it, it's my blog I can do what I want :P

Right. Back to writing about my day! 

 Today I once again slept in till 2:30pm...Not because I'm lazy but because I was slightly hungover...My baaad, not a great way to start the day I know.

We then went to the dog park where Lady had to play by herself since no one bothered to bring their dogs due to the weather.
Come on people thats what gumboots are for!!!

We then went to visit Amy before dinner.

HI AMY!!! I know you read these blogs giiiiiiirl xo

And for the first time ever Maddie, Holly and I had to ring 111 since some idiots decided to leave a couch on fire outside their house unattended right beside a hedge and their neighbours house....So obviously the best thing to do was ring otherwise if anything serious did happen we would have felt horrible. We sat there and watched for the fire truck to come but then some other people put out the fire and nobody came, so we left! 

I don't think I have ever mentioned anything to do with meals in other blogs so I'm going to start and by doing this it will hopefully help me to start eating a lot better knowing I have to write down what I eat. 

It may sound lame but I believe it may actually help with me starting to lose weight.

Another thing i've never mentioned in a blog before. I am incredibly unhappy with my weight so its time to make a change and I want to record it so one day I can look back and say "I DID IT" :) 

Anyways back to dinner, Maddie, Holly and I made chicken burgers, not the healthiest meal ever but it's better than what i've been having recently if i'm being honest. 

Everyone can come on this journey with me!

Woo! 

Again todays blog was quite short but tomorrow I plan to do a post that doesn't relate to my daily blog posts plus my usual daily entry! 

So expect two blog posts tomorrow. 

Also I want to say hello to those reading from around the world.

I never thought people would actually read my blog even if it is only a few people it's still awesome!!!

Thanks for reading and I'm excited to start changing my life for the better! 

Bye! 

   

12th & 13th September 2014

Okay, you guys are going to eventually get sick of me saying sorry for not posting the previous day! 

The 12th was very uneventful, I slept until 3pm and then Maddie and myself went grocery shopping and attempted to clean our room, that didn't go down so well. Woo! So exciting right?! 

Moving on. 

The 13th! 

After waking up around 12:30pm (still quite late, i know...) 

Maddie and I spent a couple hours trying to find a dress for me op shopping, others call it thrifting.

That was unsuccessful :(

We then went to many department stores and it was amaaazing, I love shopping! One might call me a shopaholic. 

Today was a dog park day for Lady but we couldn't go as the weather was shit & we had to rush to Amys for a at home spa treatment...It was the most disgusting experience I've had with a face mask. 

Banana, Oats, Honey & Lemon Juice.

It legitimately looked like vomit on your face. No joke.

I was thinking about attaching a photo to show you just how gross it was but thankfully I didn't take any photos with the mask on, the internet doesn't need a photo of that :P

We then started to get ready for drinks & town! 

It was such a fun night trying to learn to dance like the queen...Beyonce duuuh. 

This continued on to trying to dance like Little Mix. 

Lets just say I won't be dancing for anyone famous anytime soon ;P Cripple probs.

Town was quite packed so we only stayed in one club most of the time. 

Again with the whole short hair situation Maddie & Holly nearly got in a fight for me, fighting is bad but thanks anyway guys :P Long story short two girls kept looking straight at me and were whispering and shit blah blah being judgemental blaaah. 

Apart from that town was alright :) 

Always love going with these girls x

Not much to say now.

I promise life will get more exciting!!

Byeeeee! 

11th September

So sorry for the late post!

I was quite busy last night and completely spaced on writing my blog for the day.

11th wasn't too exciting in the morning, woke up with conjunctivitis...I'm not kidding, It freaking sucked. Thanks Maddie x >:(

So pretty much chilled in bed most of the day until it was time to head to the doctors!!

I drove of course since I want to get as much practice as possible.

  

Don't I look fabulous!?

Kidding, this was taken not long after I had woken up.

And of course it was a dog park day for the boo.

She has fun like always and there was the most beautiful dog there that looked like a wolf...I would have totally named him Bolto! (woo childhood reference) 

One thing that pissed me off about Bolto is that he had claimed the drinking fountain...Too bad if any other dog wanted a drink, It would growl and then steal the spare water bowl from me when trying to fill it up for lady. 

But I couldn't stay mad at Bolto! It was such a cute dog!!

I'm pretty positive it was a puppy since its owner was teaching it tricks...that or he was showing off ;P Cheeky.

We saw a rooster on the way down from the dog park.

Everybody meet Greg. <3 

 It was one of the nicest days that we have had for a while and I had never been to my favourite spot to go at night during the day to just sit and relax while looking out over my home city.

Relaxed was the last thing I felt while visiting my favourite spot due to 6 absolute morons who were up there drinking, keep in mind that is was only 6pm at this point so my one thought was "what the hell PLEASE leave."

So I continued to sit there looking at the view with Amy, Holly & Maddie and after 20 minutes the rude remarks and constant talk about selfies it was time to leave we were quite sick of it... and yes I said they were talking about selfies, who knew boys would talk about selfies more than girls.

"#selfie, #crippleselfie, #smileyfaceselfie" I'm not lying when I say they said all those hashtags while taking photos...

My somewhat average day turned into kind of crappy when I heard these boys comment on my hair as I was leaving. The fact that they mocked my hair and wolf whistled as I walked away didn't bother me too much, what bothered me was they felt the need to comment when they didn't know the situation on why my hair was the way it was. 

Three months ago I shaved my head for Child Cancer after raising $500.

People like that annoy the shit out of me because what if I had been a cancer patient or had something that made me lose my hair. If they can openly make fun of me whats stopping them from mocking someone who actually had a life threatening illness.

Assholes. UGH.

Anyway here is a photo of the amazing view!! 

 Again I am so sorry about the late post and thank you to anyone who is reading! 

10th September 2014

Day three of blogging! 

Wow, I haven't given up yet!

Its actually quite surprising, I thought I would get sick and tired of having to write an entry every single night but I find now that if I don't write I feel like I haven't completed my day right. Its only been three days but it's starting to become a part of my daily routine, well I don't really have a set daily routine but I think the reason why I love blogging so much is that is really the only part of my day where at a certain time I sit down and I write. ROUTINE!! 

So long story short...I am enjoying blogging more than I thought I would! :D 

This morning was not a good morning at all. Running off of 4 hours of sleep I had to make myself look decent enough for an other job interview.

I was incredibly nervous which causes me to become quite moody towards people who try talk to me because my mind is running all over the place that it can't handle listening to anyone or anything. I can't sleep which causes me to become double the bitch.

Bad, I know. 

I have no idea why I was so nervous about this interview when I was completely normal before my last interview which i mentioned in my first blog. 

Here I am looking somewhat decent. 

I'm smiling but I'm freaking my shit on the inside!

After all the stress leading up to the interview, while I was waiting for the manager to come meet me I realised theres nothing to even worry about. If I get the job, I get the job and if I don't, I don't.

The manager was so lovely and mentioned that out of about 200 people 35 people get chosen for interview through a hiring system which goes through all of the applicants CVs to see whose are worthy for an interview. Some how my CV got picked which I have no freaking clue why! 

After what I thought was an alright interview I went home and chilled out with Maddie for a while and around 5pm I got the rejection email.

At first I was upset but then I had to remind myself that there was 35 other people going for the same role as me it was nothing personal, it just so happened they found someone who fit the role a lot better.

To be honest I'm really glad I didn't get that job I don't think my knee would have been able to handle it.

I'm 100% still going to try and find another job or do the hospitality course! 

Soon after I received the email it was time to go to a quiz night with the girls :)

Here we are all pumped ready to go and...The bar was fully closed??

This resulted in a car full of not so happy girls.

After sitting awkwardly in the car for about 15 minutes debating on what to do with our night we headed back to Amys only to find ourselves standing outside awkwardly for another 15 minutes before we decided on movie night!!

22 Jump Street...AMAZING!

The first comedy in a long time that actually made laugh out loud.

Channing Tatum HELLO...I just can't. 

I mean come on look at this face! 

If quiz night would have been open this blog would have been a lot more interesting, so i apologise for the very short boring blog for today! 

Hopefully tomorrow is a lot more interesting and fun!!

Goodnight :D