1st - 13th January

Wow...So this is extremely awkward.

It has been nearly 3 months since my last blog entry, talk about lazy!
I have no idea why but I feel so anxious writing right now, I shouldn't be nervous writing an entry on my own blog, not many will read it anyway but regardless, what the hell?! 

I guess I should start by saying where & what the hell i've been doing the past few months...I'm still having issues with my knee, still unemployed & still trying to better myself to become a more confident & happy woman. 

In the knee department, I not long ago (I can't remember which month it was! ugh! sorry...) I got an appointment to see a specialist in Invercargill so my surgeon could get a second opinion about my knee, and as per usual it was a complete and utter waste of time. I get the same answer over and over again and its past frustrating and upsetting and it just freaking annoying now. My knee won't strengthen because of some damage under my knee cap from previous dislocations and the pain stops my muscles from wanting to work but all my doctors want me to strengthen it which I do try to do but its too painful but they don't want to fix any of the damage and then just tell me to strengthen it again...

It just goes around in a full bloody circle...

 I am still quite weak & I still haven't mastered the stairs yet but I am trying to walk most days, and i've been swimming quite a bit this summer so at least I'm staying reasonably active! Which is one of my new years resolutions, which brings me to my next topic. 

New Years! 

I spent new years with my sisters this year! First time in a very long time if not the first time ever! We just chilled out, had a couple drinks & took funny photos like we used to when we were little. I'm still debating with myself to include my resolutions in this blog post, it would be cool to look back on in years to come and see what I wanted to achieve when I was 20...Hmmm fuck it.

New Years Resolutions   

1. Lose as much weight as I can, healthily. 

2. Strengthen my knee! 

3. Don't stress as much! 

4. Take control of my life again whether that be getting a job or study 

Number 4 is something I'd also want to talk about in this post!
Since I last wrote I have been looking & applying to fulltime work so I am able to save money to go towards my OE! Haven't had any offers yet but Im okay with that, at least I'm looking & not giving up!! 

I have also applied to Animal Care/Vet Nursing at my local polytechnic which is all very exciting but extremely terrifying since I haven't studied anything in 3 years! 

 So I will definitely keep those who read this blog updated about that.

And now to talk about probably one of the biggest life changes in my life this year...

I moved out!! Yep...I no longer live with my twin sister.

Its incredibly hard & I know i'll have to get used to it.

We decided we needed space to grow and discover who we are without each other depending on one in other. It was time we became independent! 

That is all I can think of to update you guys right now...

There will be more posts to come and I don't think I'll be able to do daily posts anymore, I may do the occasional daily post but for now I think I might do weekly posts! 

Thank you so much for reading.
I hope everyone had an amazing Christmas, fun and safe New Years and I hope 2015 is good to everyone!